What is this blog upon which you’ve somehow stumbled? It is but a poor expression of my interior landscape as I’ve lived a life marked by blunders, sincere efforts, shame, and grace. A life that is hard to explain or understand (least of all by me). The life I endeavored to live with integrity, while being very dis-integrated. It is about an awakening that has taken a lifetime and the painful circumstances and choices occurring along the way. In a word, it’s about my recovery. What sort of recovery? I’m learning all addiction has similar roots, and all fruitful recovery includes many of the same elements. My particular brand (affliction) has been of an unwanted sexual sort, which at its roots is an intimacy disorder.

Much like my mind, the posts on this blog are not entirely at all orderly – though sometimes they are sequential. If you’re unsure where to start, I suggest the “title track”; unwanted. Other posts will appear below, according to the date written. However, the date written is not likely connected to the actual timeframe when the circumstances took place. I don’t intend for this to be confusing. My experience is that recovery is not a straightforward path.

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Looking for recovery resources? Here’s a list – sources I’ve personally experienced and found beneficial. Feel free to reach out to me as well. It would be my blessing to aid you on your recovery journey.